Love yourself
I would normally never post something so personal about myself, but I'm at a point in my life where I could really care less about what people think of me. The more open I am, the better you'll understand me.
For the past 20 years or so, I have struggled with my weight. I have tried every diet out there, even starving myself, exercising excessively, you name it - I've tried it. When it all came down to it, it wasn't my weight or my looks that I've struggled with all my life, it's me. It is something I've held deep inside for as long as I can remember and this past year I gave up. It has been a really rough year for me. I had some personal issues I would prefer not to talk about, my sister was diagnosed with a very serious case of Leukemia, I've lost friends and boyfriends, I've had great days and I've had terrible days. I quit smoking, in fact, I quit doing alot of unhealthy habits to better myself and in the process I gained weight. With all the stress of life and growing up, I have found myself lost and not in a good place, but I know that I changed for the better. With that said, it broke my heart to hear my own family making comments about my weight, questioning if I'm pregnant? It's not fair because I know I need to lose weight, if only to be a more active mother and partner to my boyfriend. So i recently started eating healthier and excercising, and to hear all of this, it's really discouraging... I'm not here to keep the rest of the world happy with my looks, we could only hope to be accepted regardless.
I know I'm not alone in this struggle. We're all different, flawed and beautiful - all at the same time. It has taken me 30 years to be ok with who I am. I am beyond clumpsy, I'm a terrible driver, I could be silly, smart and dumb, loving, caring, naive and reckless. I'll never a super thin woman. I'll always have curves and I'm ok with that. I have a man that loves me unconditionally. My daughter has a healthy/loving mother and that's enough for me. I encourage everyone of you to be happy in your own skin. *kitten* trying to be something you'll never be. Most of all, love yourself. ❤