Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love my coffee (tea, too, but to a lesser extent) to be piping hot. The second it cools down, gets lukewarm, it almost disgusts me. I can't bring myself to finish it sometimes. At least the kcups I use. The thing is, I like iced coffee a lot.Confession: I will use the same k-cup 2-3 times. lol
Worst confession I've read here, ewwwwwww. I loathe weak coffee...I'm the one who likes the cup from the bottom of the french press that's practically strong enough to stand up on its own.
But that leads to a confession that I do put a splash of cold water in my super-strong coffee to cool it down for maximum immediate gulbability, and that grosses most people out too.
I am such a wuss with hot foods/drinks so sometimes if I want to drink my tea sooner I will add in an ice cube or two. Otherwise I have to wait like 15 minutes to be able to sip it.
I love hot food. But now it's sounding a lot less appetizing in the summery heat we've been getting.
I'm like this
I need ALL my hot food to be tongue-scaldingly hot, and my cold food has to be tongue-numbingly cold. My husband sometimes tells me that I eat too fast, and I tell him that it's because my food HAS to be consumed at the optimum temperature! Lukewarm food coming from either direction just stinks. >:(
Likewise. I love my food really hot. Sometimes I burn the roof of my mouth because of it.
Yup, me too! In fact, I did that just this morning with my bowl of boiling-hot oatmeal...0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »These last few days of being sad have been pretty revealing about my unhealthy relationship with food... I just want to eat until I don't feel anything but full. The lifelong habit of medicating with food is lurking around me. I didn't log the last couple of days, and I know I probably ate over maintenance, but I'm happy that I managed to avoid sitting on the couch and eating bags (plural...) of chips and cookies.
Back on track today. Even if everything else is haywire, I am going to be kind to myself and not eat until I feel sick.
This is something I am currently going through myself. My MIL is very ill and it looks like they may not be able to do anything for her. I am close to her as I lost my own mom when I was 26. So I am somewhat self medicating with food and trying to stop myself from doing that at the same time. I didn't log at all yesterday, but I am trying to do better today and deal with the emotions another.
I am struggling with this myself over my horse. While that may not seem as sad and traumatic as a human this guy is the love of my life. I am just grateful I can spend some quality time with him in the last few weeks of his life. I am grazing him right now. But when I leave I will want to eat and drink to fill the sad places. Some days I resist. And some I don't then have that guilt and disgust with myself to deal with too. But I think we have to forgive ourselves and just keep moving forward. I do believe in the phrase that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger.
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qn4bx9pzg8aifd wrote: »-I'm 115# and the epitome of skinny fat due to unhealthy weight loss ~5 years ago with no exercise. (Currently working on changing that, and so far seems to be working.)
Welcome! And, if you haven't heard this already... weight lifting is the cure.
Seriously. I guess if you had to put a label on it, what I'm doing is a "recomp" since I'm not disciplined enough to do bulk/cut cycles, but the results are starting to really impress me.
Thank you! I've read about body recomp here on the forums and have researched it a little bit on my own and I would absolutely LOVE to get into lifting, but from what I understand it needs to be done at the gym or with the proper equipment at home? I avoid the gym because I tend to get very anxious in public places with a lot of people and I don't exactly have the finances or space for a home gym at the moment. I have looked into it though, and plan on it once I'm able. Can body weight exercises have similar results? I'm currently working my way through Body Revolution using 5-10# dumbbells, because that's what I have!
I've done all mine at home but I have a fair collection of equipment. None of it was very expensive and I understand you can probably get secondhand stuff cheap on craigslist (not true for me locally). My first barbell was a 10 lb bar and I think I paid $30 for it... didn't want to spend a lot of money when I was first starting out and didn't know if I was going to stick with it. I've since upgraded to an Olympic bar, and my SO bought me a power rack for Christmas, which is the most expensive piece. Fortunately I have a big almost-empty basement for all this.
You can accomplish a LOT with body weight though. I know there are a couple of programs that are recommended around here, like You Are Your Own Gym and Convict Conditioning.
Stick with it -- you'll love the results!
Thank you so much! I shall start there and work on getting my own gym when I'm able.
redd_87, just a quick comment... I've gotten some great deals on workout equipment (including weights) from thrift stores... it's obviously 'hit or miss', and one never knows when one might happen to chance upon something that would be found useful for a given individual... however, I've gotten some great deals, and they include some 'old school' -type of equipment that I actually prefer to newer 'incarnations' thereof...
Thanks for the tip! I plan on starting there first, but my main issue is lack of space; in an apt with roommates, second floor. I have every intention of creating my own gym when I buy a house (hopefully within the next year or two!) But until then I'm kinda screwed. I'm also planning on creeping on the apt gym to see when it's empty and maybe planning for working out then. I feel like once I get a routine down and feel comfortable it won't bother me as much to be around strangers there, so we'll see.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »These last few days of being sad have been pretty revealing about my unhealthy relationship with food... I just want to eat until I don't feel anything but full. The lifelong habit of medicating with food is lurking around me. I didn't log the last couple of days, and I know I probably ate over maintenance, but I'm happy that I managed to avoid sitting on the couch and eating bags (plural...) of chips and cookies.
Back on track today. Even if everything else is haywire, I am going to be kind to myself and not eat until I feel sick.
This is something I am currently going through myself. My MIL is very ill and it looks like they may not be able to do anything for her. I am close to her as I lost my own mom when I was 26. So I am somewhat self medicating with food and trying to stop myself from doing that at the same time. I didn't log at all yesterday, but I am trying to do better today and deal with the emotions another.
I am struggling with this myself over my horse. While that may not seem as sad and traumatic as a human this guy is the love of my life. I am just grateful I can spend some quality time with him in the last few weeks of his life. I am grazing him right now. But when I leave I will want to eat and drink to fill the sad places. Some days I resist. And some I don't then have that guilt and disgust with myself to deal with too. But I think we have to forgive ourselves and just keep moving forward. I do believe in the phrase that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger.
Thanks @pofoster21, I understand how you feel about your big guy. I recently lost my youngest mastiff too. He was five years old. Our babies in their own way.
I tear up just thinking that my cat turned 14 and probably doesn't have many years left. She's a pain in the butt but she's been with me since my divorce, and moved to the US with me. I've known her longer than my husband! And she's totally MY cat, always following me, waiting for me to go to bed etc. So yeah, I totally get it.quiksylver296 wrote: »Tomorrow I will be in training all day. This makes me sad for 3 reasons.
1. I have no idea what we'll be served for lunch so I can't log it accurately.
2. I won't be able to be on here at all.
3. Since I do my HIIT at my office, I'll be missing tomorrow's workout.
I am, however, looking forward to being out of the office for the day and getting paid for it, also...FREE LUNCH!!!
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Thanks! It is pretty much my personality. I DON'T SHARE CAKE!
Except with me, cuz we're zombie killin' partners...
I feel the need for a real confession today. - I used to shoplift in high school. A LOT. I had a shoplifting partner and we would go together and keep an eye out for the other. I lifted everything, bikinis, movies (VHS, that's how old I am), clothes, makeup, purses, whatever. We got chased out of the mall by security once. We ran through the back hallways where the public isn't supposed to go and exited out some little side door. I never got caught. My partner did, later, after she moved to another state and got put in jail and charged with a felony. - Irony...I've been a cop for over 18 years now. But I can spot a shoplifter in a heartbeat LOL
Ok this is totally awesome. Living proof that people change!FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Congrats!!!FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love my coffee (tea, too, but to a lesser extent) to be piping hot. The second it cools down, gets lukewarm, it almost disgusts me. I can't bring myself to finish it sometimes. At least the kcups I use. The thing is, I like iced coffee a lot.Confession: I will use the same k-cup 2-3 times. lol
Worst confession I've read here, ewwwwwww. I loathe weak coffee...I'm the one who likes the cup from the bottom of the french press that's practically strong enough to stand up on its own.
But that leads to a confession that I do put a splash of cold water in my super-strong coffee to cool it down for maximum immediate gulbability, and that grosses most people out too.
I am such a wuss with hot foods/drinks so sometimes if I want to drink my tea sooner I will add in an ice cube or two. Otherwise I have to wait like 15 minutes to be able to sip it.
I love hot food. But now it's sounding a lot less appetizing in the summery heat we've been getting.
I have a very sensitive mouth. Just last week I had strips of skin falling off because I burned it yet again with a piece of pizza... I often just end up dropping an ice cube in my coffee when I order some somewhere, lol.
Stressful morning today and I just gave up on making the kids school lunches. Got my husband to do it. So sick of never knowing what to make for my daughter and I know she won't eat it anyway. Gosh.
And I have absolutely no idea what *I* want for lunch, so I guess I'm a bit of an hypocrite.
Holy crap, I hope your mouth is okay now.
You'd be surprised how fast mouth wounds heal. I'm used to it by now. I always burn it...
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FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
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Italian_Buju wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »Wow, I just read through these posts about horrible parents and I'm so sorry you all had to suffer through that. I thought I had problems within my own family (my father had horrible multiple sclerosis), but my parents never abused me. Parents should never treat their children that way, and again I am very sorry.
Don't take this the wrong way, I am not a creep or anything lol, but every time you post and I see your profile photo I am taken back at how cute you are! You have this cute innocent look about you! Very beautiful!
I always have the same thought, very pretty girl.0 -
spacequiztime wrote: »I love my foods with relish or honey mustard or maple syrup if it's meaty
Tartar sauce sounds pretty interesting.
I have never liked mayo or ranch or similar creamy based sauces, I do love the hot stuff, give me salsas and hot sauce and peppers. Wasabi is good but the hot from the chili peppers is my favorite. I can go through a bottle or more a week of the sauce. Salsas such as pico de gallo I can pretty much eat plain or on a lot of things beyond tacos or chips (baked potatoes, quinoa, etc.) The sauce I had today at the little taco house was hotter than I expected and bordered on too hot. I like flavorful not not burn your mouth off hot... but I have a reasonably high tolerance too. Now my mouth is watering and I'm thinking of going and chopping onions and tomatoes, cilantro, and so on. I also love avocado, plain or in a good (no dairy added) guacamole. mmmmmm
Lunch was two tacos -- one chicken and one guacamole. I took half of the filling from each and switched it so that they were two chicken with guac tacos on homemade corn soft tortillas. Soooo good and $1.60 each taco. This taco house looked possibly sketchy - really is an old house --so I was not sure if I should try it. I'm pretty sensitive to cross contamination (gf 20 years) and I don't eat dairy. I looked it up on Yelp last fall and discovered it is well known and people plan their trips around this place. I've been going there since and I don't get sick.
I'm crazy about hot sauces and peppers, too. Most meals don't feel complete to me without something a little spicy and vinegary.0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »Tomorrow I will be in training all day. This makes me sad for 3 reasons.
1. I have no idea what we'll be served for lunch so I can't log it accurately.
2. I won't be able to be on here at all.
3. Since I do my HIIT at my office, I'll be missing tomorrow's workout.
I am, however, looking forward to being out of the office for the day and getting paid for it, also...FREE LUNCH!!!
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Thanks! It is pretty much my personality. I DON'T SHARE CAKE!
Except with me, cuz we're zombie killin' partners...
I feel the need for a real confession today. - I used to shoplift in high school. A LOT. I had a shoplifting partner and we would go together and keep an eye out for the other. I lifted everything, bikinis, movies (VHS, that's how old I am), clothes, makeup, purses, whatever. We got chased out of the mall by security once. We ran through the back hallways where the public isn't supposed to go and exited out some little side door. I never got caught. My partner did, later, after she moved to another state and got put in jail and charged with a felony. - Irony...I've been a cop for over 18 years now. But I can spot a shoplifter in a heartbeat LOL
Nice! My sister is 5 years older than me, and used to use me to smuggle shoplifted comic books out of the mall. Also candy from the convenience store.
My mom caught me with the comic books (I could not have been older than 5), and I tried to lie my way out of it. I would never do it again after that. I'm a law abiding citizen now
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So much sad and so much awesome in this thread lately. I go from being deeply sad for people to feeling so elated and proud for people.
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I ate peanut butter for dinner last night. Straight from the jar. I think I have a problem.0
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qn4bx9pzg8aifd wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »AngryViking1970 wrote: »I finally bought the Sam's Choice Coffee and Donuts ice cream yesterday and even though I had no calories left, I ate a serving. I regret nothing. Who was it that brought that up? Quiksylver? You're terrible. LOL
The glaze is the best part:D.
...just reading the words "donuts" and "the glaze" is sparking a flashback to this weekend, while with family, when I was offered the last 3 glazed donuts from a recently acquired dozen... the box containing such was presented to me 'out of nowhere' (it was like a 'stealth attack' )... and under previously-normal circumstances, an impromptu presentation of glazed donut wondrousness would have been 'received' as some sort of 'gift from the gods'...
...however... and despite being hungry, and not having access to any healthy food at the time (we were all attending a child's sporting event)... and despite my practically 'taste-hallucinating' what those beloved freakin' donuts would treat my tastebuds to... I somehow found the strength to not partake of even one 'torn' piece of one of those dastardly donut delights... and after hearing the words, "no, thanks..." come out of my mouth, I summarily found myself pondering just what words in the English language could come close to 'putting a name to' the defies-description feeling that I found myself experiencing, as those 3 beloved 'glazed circular bits of heaven' were carried away from me...
(...that moment needed some sort of 'theme music', I swear... (whatever music would be used to accompany a scene in which two former lovers must painfully say, 'not this time', would seem to 'do'...
))
I propose "I will always love you" by Whitney Houston (like in The Bodyguard)
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HollandOats wrote: »I hereby dedicate this burger to @HollandOats, with all it's mayo and bacon awesomeness. I only regret I'm out of avocado.
This is perfect Today is my birthday and I have already planned my bacon cheeseburger with mayo for tonight. And I'm having guacamole on my chicken sandwich at lunch.
In fact, I confess, I'm going to spend this whole day watching the clock for when I can eat each thing I have planned, lol... I even love my protein powder/cashew milk... it's soooo good!
I'm already pre-logged over 700 calories for the day, and am in basic denial of the barley pops I'll most likely consume with dinner. Lots of pre-planned fidgeting, too, to help offset the damages, haha!
Have a great day!!!
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xMrBunglex wrote: »My co-worker in the next cube is sick...she has been coughing up a lung for 2 days. I told her "You shouldn't be here, go home!" but she just shrugged. Why do some people insist on coming to work & pumping out the germs???
(I don't want to be rude, but sorry, she's one of these quite large unhealthy people that will end up being sick for a month.)
Maybe I'll turn it into a positive & call in sick on Monday and blame it on her! (Assuming I don't, you know, ACTUALLY GET SICK)
Oops. I do that. Well, not often, because I only get a cold about once every two or three years... but I was raised to "suck it up and carry on" so I always think to myself "it's just a stupid head cold" and, as long as I feel well enough to work (which I always do), off I go.
I'm in a quiet, pretty isolated end of the building so I don't have a lot of coworker contact anyway.
And usually by the time I get to the audible coughing-up-a-lung stage I'm actually on the mend and feeling a whole lot better, so I couldn't justify staying home when I feel fine.
Guilty as well. I was brought up with "Unless you throw up in front of me or you are clearly dying, you will go to school" I can't get out of the habit. I once had two funerals in one day and I still went to uni in the morning. I got weird looks for turning up to uni in smart black clothes though...0 -
spacequiztime wrote: »I love my foods with relish or honey mustard or maple syrup if it's meaty
Tartar sauce sounds pretty interesting.
I have never liked mayo or ranch or similar creamy based sauces, I do love the hot stuff, give me salsas and hot sauce and peppers. Wasabi is good but the hot from the chili peppers is my favorite. I can go through a bottle or more a week of the sauce. Salsas such as pico de gallo I can pretty much eat plain or on a lot of things beyond tacos or chips (baked potatoes, quinoa, etc.) The sauce I had today at the little taco house was hotter than I expected and bordered on too hot. I like flavorful not not burn your mouth off hot... but I have a reasonably high tolerance too. Now my mouth is watering and I'm thinking of going and chopping onions and tomatoes, cilantro, and so on. I also love avocado, plain or in a good (no dairy added) guacamole. mmmmmm
Lunch was two tacos -- one chicken and one guacamole. I took half of the filling from each and switched it so that they were two chicken with guac tacos on homemade corn soft tortillas. Soooo good and $1.60 each taco. This taco house looked possibly sketchy - really is an old house --so I was not sure if I should try it. I'm pretty sensitive to cross contamination (gf 20 years) and I don't eat dairy. I looked it up on Yelp last fall and discovered it is well known and people plan their trips around this place. I've been going there since and I don't get sick.
I'm crazy about hot sauces and peppers, too. Most meals don't feel complete to me without something a little spicy and vinegary.
Marie Sharp's Habenero...the BEST hot sauce ever. Found it on a trip to Belize, where it is made. I have to order it on Amazon now. Totally worth it.0 -
Confession- I am working semi-necessary overtime so I can hoard the comp hours for a vacation this summer. Shhh- I made my boss think it is critical overtime so he would approve it
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Confession- I am working semi-necessary overtime so I can hoard the comp hours for a vacation this summer. Shhh- I made my boss think it is critical overtime so he would approve it
Is it critical that you go on vacation so you don't lose your mind? Yes? Okay then, it is critical.0 -
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xMrBunglex wrote: »My co-worker in the next cube is sick...she has been coughing up a lung for 2 days. I told her "You shouldn't be here, go home!" but she just shrugged. Why do some people insist on coming to work & pumping out the germs???
(I don't want to be rude, but sorry, she's one of these quite large unhealthy people that will end up being sick for a month.)
Maybe I'll turn it into a positive & call in sick on Monday and blame it on her! (Assuming I don't, you know, ACTUALLY GET SICK)
A lot of businesses are doing this to themselves. For YEARS, everywhere I worked gave me XX vacation days to take when I want, plus X personal holidays to take when I want, and unlimited sick days (salary) so long as I didn't take advantage of it. I always took off when I was sick, got rested, and felt better more quickly.
For the past 4-5 years, the companies I've worked for have changed to a PTO system. You are given XX PTO days, this encompasses sick days + vacation. I WILL NOT use my PTO for a sick day unless I'm practically on my death bed.0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Congratulations!!!0
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